PS I LOVE YOU
IS F-KING GOOD.

i just sat in the theatres
and cried my heart out.
it makes me wonder if i'll ever
meet the right one.
how would i know?
people always say
"you'll just know it somehow"
but i thought you were that HIM
so does this mean i would never know?

at the kissing scene,
it made me remember when our
lips first met.
at the same time,
it was ages ago that it last met.
ive forgotten the smell on your shirt
ive forgotten how you sound like
on the phone
ive forgotten the way you sang to me
ive forgotten how it feels like
to lie beside you
ive forgotten the feeling when
you laid on my lap
ive forgotten the times where
we studied together
ive forgotten how your hands felt
ive forgotten the time where we both
got so worried about the other when
the phone system screwed up
ive forgotten how the bus rides felt like
ive forgotten the way you said 'i love you'
ive forgotten about the heart to heart
talks we used to have along the street
ive forgotten about the "butterfly kisses"
ive forgotten how it feels like to stare
at your face as you sleep or play
ive forgotten the times where silly jokes
put a smile across my face
ive forgotten how your smile looks like
ive forgotten how you used to tell me about
your dreams about being a pilot
ive forgotten all about honey and bees
ive forgotten how strawberry fruitella taste like
ive forgotten the times where we
gazed into the starry night
ive forgotten the way you hug me
like there's no tomorrow
ive forgotten how much you knew me
just like the back of your hand
ive forgotten about the only time
where i wasnt afraid of boogey monster
ive forgotten. ive truely forgotten
ive forgotten everything about me and you.

Suddenly i realised that this time,
you're gone for good.
i should pick myself up
why afraid to love?
"its better to have loved and lost
than to not have loved before."

Memories, everyone has memories.
Some good, some bad.
YOU are just one small chapter
in my life.
i've got a long way to go
why be so obstinate about it?
what would the next chapter be?

its so hard to take the first step
for a new chapter to begin
because i've never thought about
starting a whole new chapter.
Would it be one where i burn cigars
in one hand and shouting profanities?
or would it be one where flowers,
butterflies and pretty things exist?
no matter what my next chapter is,
there wouldnt be a space for YOU.

enough is enough.
you're gone for good.
perhaps this is a trillion times
you've heard me say this
cause everytime when i feel that its gone,
you come running straight back in.
stop being so selfish.
let me breathe. its time to let go.
you've had your chance at
deceiving my heart. now, let it end.

I hope someday
when we meet again along the streets.
we could still smile to the other
and not be embarrassed to know that
we once had it all.
Afterall, you were once the love
that i thought would be the RIGHT one.

dont forget us.


/everything we had, its no longer there